It’s Friday and normally I would be happy, over the moon almost. Not today. Don’t know why. Last night was a quiet evening alone with Bill at his folks. Watched Ugly Betty, Scrubs, My Name is Earl and The Office, all very good episodes. No complaints there. Went to bed at a decent hour and slept ok. Woke up ok with the alarm clock. I puttered around, did the routine, showering, cereal and coffee and I was out the door in time to catch the bus. Yesterday, since I saw Bjork the night before I decided to go into work a little bit later that usual.
I told them I’d be in at 10:00, but wound up in the office at 9:30. Today it was back to normal, at my desk around 8:05, still the first one in. I knew it was going to be a quiet day since Tom Chin was going to be out the next 5 days. He’s a fusspot and could be gay. Hasn’t mentioned a wife or girlfriend but has talked about his two dogs, small kicker dogs. Not that that’s a clue and I really don’t care either way but it’s a good way to give Tom Chin something like a back story.
So it was rather quiet. Carla asked if she could take an early lunch to go to a sample sale. I said yes. Her lunch was at 10:45 and she did come back an hour later empty handed due to the long lines just to get into the showroom where the sample sale was. A few weeks ago I had a run in with the security company that provides access to our office. It was an ugly argument and the following day I gave the project of dealing with these idiots to Carla who arranged for them to come in. She also arranged for our IT guy, Ian to come in. He works as a consultant out of his apartment in Queens.
He came in, nice guy, handsome, helped me out with a program that was troubling me the past few days. He sat with the security guys and set everything up. Ian asked me how I was doing there and I told him so far, so good. He told me I lasted longer than the previous guy, Franklin Pena who lasted two days. Ian said that Franklin couldn’t handle the pressure. From what Carla told me, it was the pressure that got to him. And he was trained by Nadine who had the job previously. I’ve never met Nadine, nor had any email contact. I’m basically setting up a system with no guidance from anyone.
The fact that I’ve outlasted Franklin seems to be an accomplishment, and I’ve been told that I’m doing a good job by a few people in the hierarchy. I strolled around midtown for lunch and wound up in the neighborhood of Wanker Banker where I ran into Walter the UPS guy. I told him all about the Bjork show and he regretted not being able to go, he being a big Bjork fan. He asked where I was working and what I was doing and I told him how finally I was an office manager. He then said now all the problems will fall on my shoulders. That was disconcerting and also when I noticed my self doubt creeping up on me.
I walked back to the office feeling worthless and stupid, feeling that I’ve carried with me since childhood. Most of the time the self doubt is ignored, but as usual when I’m alone and left with my thoughts that’s when I get into trouble. I was planning on leaving the office early today at 4:00 and it seemed to take forever to get there. I blame that on writing about how fast the days goes by last week. I’m still doubting myself and making promises to make headway next week when I go back to work. I am hoping to go for a bike ride tomorrow, perhaps up to and over the George Washington Bridge. That might alleviate my spring time blues. It’s supposed to be a gorgeous day. Cross your fingers and look both ways.
This is from the bloglist, Joe.My.God who got it from Towleroad, also in the bloglist.
Gay Death Threats At FLL
Blogs are buzzing this morning after a gay couple in the Fort Lauderdale airport heard the following intercom announcement at the baggage carousel: “‘A man who lies with another man as he would a woman is subject to death.” The announcement, which came at 12:45am, was repeated several minutes later.
I wrote to a friend who runs one of the airline lounges at FLL and he’s going to try and get some inside scoop on the culprit. He tells me that intercom access is available from all over the airport, so the identity of Levitical creep may never be known. Check out the story on Towleroad for fuller details.