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Hail Satin

Another Monday. Yesterday was yet another washout of a Sunday. The rain ended at some point last night when the sun had set. Mike was over and that was fun. Some in depth soul searching conversation occured. I also helped him with his laundry. I washed, he hung out to dry.

I had a dream before waking. I was walking to Maxwell’s and ran into Maurice Menares on the sidewalk outside. We both went in and things were just as they were 36 years ago. I lingered at the front bar for a minute before heading into the kitchen looking for Steve Fallon who was jokingly trying not to be found. He was talking to Maurice by the shelves where things were settled and sweated.

Then I found Julio at the back bar using a new type of register which was supposed to be cutting edge, or at least that is what Julio told me. The alarm went off soon after that and I stumbled out of bed before the sun had arisen. Lucifer bearer of light was a bit tardy this morning.

It’s Columbus Day or more succinctly, Indigenous Peoples Day. That makes more sense. It was was a plot line on the Sopranos back in the day. The indignity of the Italian Americans, upset that Christopher Columbus was vilified for his crimes against humanity. I was brought up being taught that Columbus was a hero when in actuality he was a genocidal maniac with the backing of the Spanish monarchy as well as the blessing of the Roman Catholic Church.

I saw a show at the Brooklyn Academy of Music in the 1980s with my brother Frank that had a segment about Columbus discovering the new world. It was possibly the first time I came across that line of thought, that Columbus was a bad guy. Years later, reading Howard Zinn, it was set in stone, at least in my mind.

Listening to the Slits right now. I think Dave Bell turned me onto them. Jimmy Chile heard a bit of them for the first time and liked what he heard. It reminded me of Laszlo Papp, or more specifically a girl he used to like; in what sense, I do not know but he was somewhat smitten. I think her name was Nanette, or it might have been Babette.

She was probably my age but far more worldly than me. She lived in Fort Lee with her parents, or one of her parents. She danced like Ari Up and showed me how to skank like I was in Madness. There was something about her though; perhaps a piece of the puzzle was missing. I thought she was intimidating but harmless and I was very much an innocent, if not a wimp that Laszlo tolerated, probably like the DeNunzio brothers took Laszlo under their shoulders when they were in the Feelies.

When I started working at Maxwell’s I was a barback that took over the Friday night gig working alongside Declan and Martha. Keith DeNunzio had the barback position before me. I recall giving him a ride home to Rutherford and he may have said something untoward about my brother Frank. I told Frank about it and whatever friendship Frank might have had with Keith DeNunzio evaporated. Keith called me out on it.

Laszlo was the best man at Keith’s marriage to a woman named Kim. I met them years before Maxwell’s. Kim was good friends with my Weehawken roommate William and stayed with us for a spell in the 90’s after living abroad. Other friends of mine didn’t like her but she seemed fine to me. Those other friends of mine were quite judgemental, it was all very high school.

I do have a nice memory from the summer of 1980. I was hanging out with Laszlo, Keith & Kim at Laszlo’s parent’s house. It was a beautiful summer night and the four of us went across Market St to a field and spent time, past midnight being silly and kicking a soccer ball back & forth. It was lovely and innocent.

I think I got home around 3:00 AM and was greeted by the back of my father’s hand across my 17 year old face, cursing me for staying out so late. Yes it was late, but it was such a magic night. Time flew by. No drinks, no drugs (at least not for me) just wonderfulness that came crashing down due to my father’s foul temper.

Keith and Kim divorced and Kim moved to Spain. Keith remarried to someone and I think he’s a dad. I got along with the other DeNunzio brother though it’s fleeting in that once small circle of Maxwell’s people.

from about 1978 to 1984

So, from about 1978 to let’s say 1984, for people that I knew and for me, it was a good time for music. It seemed that each week, there was a new single, EP, or album was being released, which was mind-blowing and groundbreaking

Just a phenomenal time before I started heading into the city, I would give Laszlo Papp $5 to pick up a single for me. I suppose there were times when he was embarrassed to buy the Flying Lizards cover version of Money but he did it anyway.

Eventually, he started asking me if I wanted to go with him, and I would only spend afternoons on St Mark’s Place buying clothes, record,s and comic books. We’d sit on the stairs next to Trash & Vaudeville, and next to the St Mark’s Baths

I was oblivious to what was going on behind the doors of that bathhouse. I was also in the closet, so if I had known, I wasn’t going to let on that I knew what was going on

Life was cheaper then, I was living with my folks, buying presents for my brother Frank was an exciting time since I was getting him imports that he did not have any clue. Basically, I was giving him material for his radio show, and he said no one else had a radio show like his. Frank benefited the most out of all of that.

Bill is on the road already, not coming back until Monday, and Mike has offered to have me over while he and his beloved boyfriend do whatever it is they want to do. But I begged off, and Mike sort of knew that I was going to do that. I don’t want to be the third wheel, and plus, I still get a bit flustered or upset with Mike and his beloved boyfriend; it’s best to watch from a distance.

Mike insists that if his boyfriend weren’t going to be around, he’d be spending time and helping me, but the way the universe works, it turns out that Bill will be away and Mike will be entertaining his boyfriend at the same time. So it’s up to me to get over my separation anxiety and do whatever it is that I have to do

Right now, I feel like I will be fine and looking forward to this time alone. When that time comes, who knows how I will feel, but I think right now I have the correct attitude for whatever it is.

Lots of things to stream and watch, and have been recorded or are scheduled to happen. But mainly I’m looking forward to sleeping in. I am wearing my Skechers boots that I’ve had for a number of years and they look like it but they’re comfortable and they keep my feet dry I don’t look as nice or as new as the shoes or footwear and other people wear and perhaps I’m being judged because one of the ways the judge people is to look at their choice of footwear I am wearing the role of Mr Scuffed

Now I am in the time of day, I don’t know whether or not do something about lunch, or something is going to happen that I freeload off of, I just don’t know. It is 11:53 on Thursday, February 5th 2026

One of the things I like to do when I am bored is not leave work and read something, but if I don’t have anything to read and generally start to write something impossible. In this day and age, writing is archaic, so what I am doing is dictating words into my phone and watching Google mangle whatever it is sometimes to say I am trying to say just like that phrase.