Monthly Archives: July 2006

Lions After Slumber

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Today made for my three month anniversary at McMann and Tate. It went well. Very interesting situation, very busy not put off by certain people and I kept getting job offers, or job postings from Lawrence, Virginia and Michelle’s company. Virginia has me set up for an interview tomorrow but I’m not so sure I could make it. It pays well but I don’t know if I can get out of the office in time to do it. I’m already thinking of excuses to get me out of that. Next week, I may have other interviews, but since I have notice of the possibilities I can get out of work when needed.

There of course is a twisted aspect to the whole thing. I’ve been getting along with some new employees and I think I may have hit my groove at work. It’s starting to be a walk in the park, but Bill reminded me about how I felt last Tuesday going to have dinner with Annemarie and Earl. Sometimes I hit the groove and everything goes well, and other times it is nothing but shit. The thing is I feel I will let them down if I leave, and these are the people who’ve told me to think about whether or not I want to continue working there only three weeks ago.

That is the actual event that started the new job search. I cast the fishing lines out and they seem to be biting right now, actually it’s more like they’re nibbling. On one hand I feel like I’m fitting in, and on the other hand I still feel like the rank outsider. It’s a strange position to be in. And with everything happening on the third month anniversary it truly makes for a strange brew.

Of course, nothing could happen at all. Yesterday I thought I’d be given a hero’s welcome at Michelle’s office, and I wasn’t (though that 10:30-6:30PM gig she told me about today was mighty sweet and tempting). This could all be me building this up in my head. It might just be a good day at the office. I think there is the other shoe waiting to be dropped. So much on my mind.

I’m glad Bill was here to talk me in off the ledge. I was a bit out of sorts, alone with my thoughts walking down to the World Trade Center Path train, listening to Talking Heads and smoking a Padron, it’s was all I could think of. I’m glad Bill was home tonight, not just for his support, but we are watching a documentary on the drug culture and music from the sixties and I’m pointing out who’s who. It’s an eye opener for Bill, learning about the sixties culture. Not that I experienced it first hand, just had easy access to the information, I experienced the sixties twenty years later, and in some ways I still am, but with a touch of punk sensibility and the whole DIY thing. Then again, Do It Yourself (DIY) is probably a hold over from the sixties. The more things change, the more they stay the same.

It’s Going To Happen

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It happens most every time. I had an interview that I thought was for a company that ran the website and of course I could’ve sworn that I would be greeted with flowers much like the troops entering Baghdad. Like the troops entering Baghdad, I wasn’t greeted with flowers, but nor was I shot at. I got through the whole day thinking about my exit plans from McMann and Tate.

What would I say? What could I say? Doesn’t matter. All I did was interview with two women, Michelle and Colette. Not at the same time, but right after each other. I was at a disadvantage. The deodorant that I put on much earlier in the day when it was cooler was starting to fad and as it started to fade I began to smell. I’d like to think I was the only one who could smell it, but it was over 90 degrees and I just rode the subway. Hopefully they took that in account.

They were impressed with the resume and at least I didn’t have to explain anything. They enjoyed the spectrum of employment that I possessed. From the recording studios to an investment bank with one or two stops in between. They expressed an interest in me, telling me they had a few positions in mind. They work as a team so I have to revamp the resume and send it to Michelle who would forward it to the other counselors.

As luck would have it I have two more job interests. Tempted to say offers, but nothing has been offered yet. Lawrence Stern and Virginia Wagner phoned with positions they had come across their respective desks. Oddly enough I had the foresight to see if Bill could revamp the resume somewhat. He did what he could and it was great. I just have to apply the suggestions that Virginia suggested last Thursday and resend to Michelle, Lawrence and Virginia.

I might ask Bill being miles ahead of me and Microsoft Word savvy, to do some hocus pocus on it. At McMann and Tate I felt a little like Judas, walking among these people, some who are actually saying hello to me, and thinking about how I wasn’t going to be there anymore, that after work, I would be walking on a carpet of flowers and I-9 forms. There was guilt but I just figured that it’s just a job and I’ve passed through quite a few, including ones where I actually made friends that remain friends to this very day.

I got over it. I was relatively busy. Just had to look at the condition that the kitchen was in and I knew that I really wanted to get away from there. The day ended weirdly. Someone had a doctor’s appointment and needed Felicia to accompany them. It almost left me holding the bag, but since Linda was back she was able to hold down the fort while Felicia was out and I headed off to my dental appointment, meaning job interview that was just an introduction of sorts.

And it’s still hot despite a 5 minute downpour.