Two things I remember working for hbj and driving from Saddle Brook to Manhattan which twice a day and it was fun initially I was driving to 47th and 3rd eventually I had to drive to 111 5th avenue.

Both spots were connected in my mind to Andy Warhol. 47th Street was the site of the original factory so by the time I came around it had been torn down and replaced by a parking garage 111 5th avenue was right around the corner from the latest studio or factory on the edge of Union Square and 17th Street.

I recall the thrill I got when looking by the entrance to the building index and seeing Andy Warhol on the building listing.
I was much too scared to ring the bell.

Also hbj published Andy Warhol books so that was fun. My mom met him or at least saw him when he came to Saddle Brook to sign books to ship out. I am fairly certain my mom figured out Andy was a homosexual. She probably mentioned he was a fag.

That was her vernacular at the time though she did go to her grave thinking that I was going through a phase despite my sister telling her that it was no phase.

I met Andy twice and it was at book signing so is fleeting the first time was with the sainted Martha Keavney at B. Dalton books at 8th Street and 6th avenue. I bought the book other people bought the book as well as soup cans and photographs and what have you.

The second time was that Rizzoli books on West Broadway and this time I brought soup cans and postcards and photographs and what have you. I’ve walked up to the area where Andy was and he receded at a card table with a hood on. There was no one there and apparently they had run out of books.

Before we had got there Martha and I someone snatched the wig off Andy’s head and threw it to a willing accomplice waiting downstairs. And he was hurt and upset but he still sat there and signed everything that I asked him to sign. I had no idea what that just happened but I was grateful.

The company that place me at the fruit stand is putting pressure on me to define four goals for 2026 I am uneasy about this as I have gotten through life without any goals really just to wind up at the end of the day alive and well? But that will not suffice for them so I have to find something that will make them happy.

I just can’t win that mega millions soon enough though. That would solve a lot of problems and perhaps create new ones but I would like to find out for myself if that would be possible I would be grateful but Joe no say

I am attempting to take things seriously and not yet let things lied by slide by. And this is an opportunity to do just that. Google dictate really sucks.

I have just received a message from Mike that his boyfriend has booked the cruise for May 15th a 3-day Cruise in the Bahamas I guess is good the 15th to the 18th the Friday to Monday.

Mike asked me to buy him cigars the other day and I begged off claiming I did not have enough in my finances to do such a thing and that he should ask his boyfriend to do it. And then I found out that I can do it and I was going to let him know that I can do it but saying these Cruise itineraries let the boyfriend do it.

And I think everything will go well with Mike and his boyfriend provided Mike does not get employment before May 18th. So it will work out for him provided things do not work out for him.

I am getting my cigars tomorrow.
I’ve got a good job I’ve got a good man I’m in a dysfunctional relationship but it works and it’s constant update makes it worthwhile I shouldn’t be so petty

it’s cold I didn’t wear a hat so I wanted to see how cold it was and it was cold

I was just thinking of how, when we convinced Mike to get a laptop, it would help him write down his poetry, to help him write his plays, and perhaps learn some skills on a computer that would give him a leg up on the people who are also looking for jobs. But that’s not what he’s doing I’m pretty sure of it, it’s more about looking at porn.

I am doing computer things now, and considering that I’m mostly self-taught and not that bad at it. Mike would have the advantage of Bill and me on his shoulder, helping him proceed, but that’s not it.

Mike’s boyfriend is thinking about moving back east so he and Mike can be close together, and so Mike’s boyfriend is looking for work. I made a few suggestions of each or so ago, and that’s about as far as I would go.

I don’t think it’s a good idea since they’ve met twice and FaceTime, I’m not sure if that’s the way to determine the relationship. But it’s a new generation, it’s a new age, and perhaps that’s how things are done nowadays. I am a dinosaur after all.

Having met Bill 25 years ago via a Yahoo groups party that seemed to be out of the ordinary, but nowadays it seems to be quite tame. In any event, it’s not my life, it’s not my decision.

Yesterday, the whole day went by without contacting Mike on the phone. A few texts here and there, but that was about it.

Perhaps that’s how it should be. There are a few realizations that came across in my head over the weekend due to the lack of contact, and they seem to make sense at least to me.

He asked me to purchase a box of cigars for him, but my funds are a bit tight at the moment, so I begged off.

The bloom is probably off the rose, but sometimes it reblooms again. Right now it is off.
He can always ask his boyfriend for whatever it is that he needs. I am not the one.

The well can run dry, believe it or not.

The boyfriend and Mike have a plan to go on a cruise in April or May. And that is considering that Mike will not be employed at that time. I do not know how Mike’s job search is proceeding. I feel that it is not, and he is content with his 1200 social security check that he receives once a month, which he spends on cigars.

I am not one to talk because when I was unemployed, I was still buying cigars. But I was also actively looking for work from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed.
But that is just me.

But what I am doing is basically copying and pasting every day, and if I can do it, I can definitely do it, but Mike is not making any effort to learn such tasks, and I was hoping he would to improve his station in life, but he seems content even though the station in life does not exist at this moment for him. I mean, if I can do it, anyone can do it, and if anyone can do it, Mike can definitely do it.

Like many of my school teachers told me on my report cards and to my parents, if only he could apply himself