Just opened an email from Sung, formerly Song. He and Ray just made it safely back to Sydney and he asked me to tell Bill and Juan that he said hi. So, ‘Hi’ from Sydney to those two. He’s such a sweetie. I enjoyed having dinner with Sung and Ray last week and I’m glad they enjoyed my company as well. One day Bill and Juan will meet both Sung and Ray. Hopefully soon, though of course, time will tell. Who knows, when that ship comes in, perhaps Bill and I will sail off to Australia with Juan ably playing the role of Gilligan to my Skipper, with Bill paying all the major parts, being the actor that he is.

Bill has been my champion the past few days. No scratch that, the past few years. He really puts up with me. I know, I put up with him, but my drama is so wide ranging and half the time, he doesn’t offer any drama. Make that most of the time, not half the time. Tonight, we were sitting watching Scrubs, and we both got choked up as one of the patients sang, ‘Waiting for my Real Life to Begin’ with the cast then she died. Very touching song and used to perfection while yanking our heartstrings. I got choked up and turned to see Bill wiping his eyes, which made my bladder move that much closer to my eyes. Here’s a clip : cut and paste

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DcV0SemO8NE

Like I said, Bill has been my champion. The past few days I’ve been stressing out the new job at the Golden Staffing Agency. Perhaps it’s an employment hangover from last year, it was a doozy. I knew it wouldn’t be hard to do the job as I have done it before in the past. Just wary because of the people, after getting screwed by the Wolffmen, and the Wanking Bankers, but Bill built up my spirits and I slept well with out much tossing and turning as I lay in Bill’s arms most of the night.

After two weeks of doing nothing at all, I guess I was ready to start doing things. I got up at 6:30 which is about a half hour later than I used to when working for the Wolffmen. I was able to take my time getting ready since I wasn’t due in until 9:00. So I got to watch TV and check the email. I finally heard from Debbie, one of the Wolffmen who responded to my email last week, telling me that I was paid up payroll wise and that I wouldn’t be getting a bonus since that was for people that still worked there.

I did the right thing, or so I thought when I left the Wolffmen. I thought by giving them notice, I wouldn’t leave them hanging, giving them the time and helping them out. If I took the money and ran, leaving the company and not returning, I would have had that cash in hand. My financial planning is worth shit. My sense of decency leaves me broke. Nothing I can do about it now, except to work and wait for my next paycheck, in two weeks. It sucks, but it’s not the end of the world.

Thank you Bill.

Well it’s the first day of the New Year. It’s a Monday. Woke up at a decent hour, 10:00AM. Went out in the rain for bagels and the papers as well as eggs. Bill was sleeping in on the new sheets that he doesn’t think I noticed. I only noticed a few minutes ago actually. Bill went to sleep around 12:30 after we watched the fireworks from the bedroom window. I watched the New Years shows on TV afterwards, eventually going to sleep around 2:00, after two contrasting phone calls from Juan who was at a party in the city.

The first was a bit despairing, the second was more rambunctious, the life of the party as Juan is sometimes known as. For me, gone are the days of DJ’ing on New Years Eve. It was something to do but hanging out with Bill the past two New Years Eves have been quite nice.

I have some anxiety about tomorrow, this being my last day of free dumb. I had two weeks off and didn’t do much of anything which was fine but in hindsight I should have done something, anything. Then again, that is basically what I wanted to do, veg out, so I guess it was a success. Today was the perfect day for imitations of vegetation. Grey and rainy, almost Arcata like. I stayed in and watched the Monk marathon on cable.

Wouldn’t you know it though, that I’ve seen most of the episodes they’re showing today which takes a lot of fun out of a detective show. But it’s so well written and acted that it’s easy to forget who did it. It is a lot like watching any of the Law and Order shows with Bill. After the first five minutes, one of us usually says that we had seen it before, yet still we watch. Since Bill went to work today, I’ve just been avoiding the Law and Orders, preferring to watch Tony Shaloub instead. Beats the Gerald Ford funeral anyhow.

And there is the anxiety of tomorrow, worried about fitting in though I did feel comfortable when I interviewed there. It’s a smaller office, filled with humans, in midtown, an area I know really well. And I’ll be back in the suit and tie, which is something I’ve wanted for a long time. Anxiety lurks in the corners of my mind, fear of failing, yet almost like going to a new school in a new town, needing to start all over again. Bill was trying to reassure me, but now he’s working and I have my self-doubt to keep me company.

I guess everyone has anxiety about tomorrow, tomorrow in the abstract sense. I’ve been thinking about various jobs that I’ve had and the places I’ve work and the people I’ve worked with. I’ve made a lot of friends that I continue to be in contact with over the years. Some jobs ended, some jobs I quit and some jobs I was fired from. This is just another in a series I suppose, though it could turn into a nice long term job which would suit me just right. Wanker Banker turned out to be long term though personally it went terribly wrong at the end, I had to leave since nothing was being done about the situation I was in. Wound up at McMann & Dishrag which as we all know turned out to be a big mistake.

So here’s to hoping to a better job and better opportunities for the New Year, not just for me but for you too.