Snow Day

Monday, January 26, 2026. A snow day. I enjoy snow days. The past couple of days have seen a lot of snow and very cold temperatures. I went out on Saturday morning, and that was the last of it for me. I went to the supermarket and stocked up on whatever was left on the shelves. It was bitterly cold, but if you are dressed for it and have somewhere to go, it’s manageable.

Bill was in Philadelphia on Sunday, driving some plebes around. It was just cold for him, no snow. The snow came on Sunday. I stayed in and watched Bugonia. It was a weird movie, yet enjoyable. It was not as enjoyable as Pretty Things by Yorgos Lanthimos. Emma Stone was great as usual, and Jesse Plemons was very good too. He looks like me, and when he is seen riding a bicycle in the movie, his resemblance to me was unnerving.

Aiden Delbis played Plemons’ cousin, and he looked like my former roommate, Kevin, who passed away a few years ago. We could have easily played those parts, or at least been the stand-ins for the main actors.

By that time, the view from my window showed whiteout conditions. Initially, I could not see the World Trade Center. Then it got so thick that River Street and Garden Street, a block away, were totally obscured. We had enough food to get through whatever it was we were going through.

I watched Bugonia again last night with Bill, who was somewhat engrossed by what he was watching. The twist threw him for a loop. Now he’s content watching Star Trek, the one where they wind up in San Francisco in the eighties.

I went out for a walk this afternoon. Not that I was climbing the walls, I just wanted to see how it was outside, and in doing so, I went and picked up some cigars. Imran at the cigar store told me they were open, and throughout most of his day, he had about 5 or 6 customers. He was happy looking out the window of the cigar store and watching the snowfall, which was probably still a novelty to him since he is from India.

Last night, word was sent that the fruit stands in Manhattan were going to be closed today, which was good news to hear. Going around Hoboken this afternoon, I found that the majority of the sidewalks were shovelled, so that was comforting. 13 years ago, I remember walking down the street a day after a snowfall, and as I walked looking straight ahead, I next found myself on my back looking at the sky. I did not see the ice beneath my feet.

Nowadays, I am more cautious and will walk in the middle of the street if it’s safe enough to avoid falling on the ice again. Today, while on the sidewalks, I would stop and allow others to pass. Unless they were walking and looking at their phones. I suppose they can do both, walk and look at their phones, whereas I would rather not.

I look back on my childhood when a snow day was truly something magical. Sledding down Gunther Avenue was always fun, wiping out at the bottom of Gunther Avenue just before it went into Main Street. No one was ever injured during this time. If one were more adventurous you would go sledding down Wilson Street, which was steeper and more thrilling, occasionally flying in the air about 4 feet above the snow. It was never too wet, never too cold. It was always fun.

I also remembered something that wasn’t fun on a particular snow day. I was wandering around on the day off, snow everywhere, when I saw Michael Nicastro, Mike Nocito, and John Valainia, three bad boys in the area. They chased me, and I went to hop over the white picket fence next to our house.

I thought the snow would support me as I climbed over, but it did not and I wound up straddling the fence, the white picket ripping through my pants and slicing me open between my 12-year-old scrotum and inner thigh. Blood trailed in the snow as I made it inside to call my mother to tell her what happened.

It was a flesh wound and healed itself up in a day or two. It really could have been a lot worse.

The Reawakening

Awakening certificate reawakening can be even more difficult. Wanted to go to work a little bit later since I didn’t have to be there until 9:00, so I thought I’d sleep until 7:00

Unfortunately, Bill woke me up at 6:30. I thought he knew, but maybe he forgot, but then again, I’m a fucking idiot.

And who could forget good old Frankie, who kept pleading with me to call him last night when he heard of my despair, and when I did call him, he was not there. You’ve got to love friends who just say I’ll be there for you and when you need them, they are not there. Very much like Daniel Chieffo.

So this new chapter concerns the diminishment of my sex drive. It has been a blessing and a curse. I remember when Bill and I were seeing a therapist, I mentioned that I wished I were asexual, which caused the therapist to have some raised eyebrows, and I was explaining to him that it’s just so much difficulty, and now here I am 20 years later saying the same lines

63 years old, I lived through the epidemic, dodged many bullets, not about to go back on the firing range, and seeing if I can dodge more, it’s just not worth it. Bill and Mike, you can bless their cocks cuz I was going to say hearts, but it’s more about their cocks than their hearts

Bill bounces around from the NYSC gymnasiums throughout Manhattan. He’s got a connection here, he’s got a connection there, and I’ve often thought that’s what was going on, but figured no, that’s not his style, but seeing him on Monday night after our discussion, that is his style

I was feeling flattered right now thinking that please type to go running around, that’s my lottery for myself, prevented me from saying it as a sexual feast of a sexual person actually

I was talking to Jimmy Chile and remarked how my sexual upgrading was usually on the run and in public bathrooms at the mall and department stores, as well as men’s cars. It was all about getting off as quick as possible and getting out of there. So I had no one to teach me but my feet and my wits, and somehow they got me through it.

That would explain my lackluster experience with Bill. In a better world, perhaps there would be a dialogue where one would say to the other you know, maybe if you did this, maybe if we did that but that never happened, and I was left hung out to dry. And here I am 25 years later, licking my wounds because there’s nothing else to lick.

I do have to say that Google’s dictation machine really sucks dick as good as I suck dick, and I am no good at sucking dick.

I suppose I should talk with Bill with regard to what’s going on in my head, and it’s probably not going to go well since things like this never go well with him.

Perhaps it’s better if I don’t say anything and let things continue on the way they are, and wait for him to bring it up. Passive-aggressive narcissism, let’s see how that plays out.

I just wandered around the office, and not much is going on. I was hoping to talk with Marcus and Jimmy, but Jimmy was not there, and Marcus was, as usual, a tight-lipped persona
So now here I am, minutes later, back at my desk