Well as Juan said it was my swan song. Though at first I didn’t think I knew what he was talking about and I wasn’t sure if he knew what he was talking about but he did. It was my last day at Golden Staffing and it was even more of a waste of time that the previous days this week. The day started out ok, nothing special, just coffee, no cereal and then it was off to the bus. I got to the office and no one was in yet, I was the first. Last time I’d be using the office key as I opened the door and walked in turning on various lights and machines.

About 30 minutes later people started coming in. President Naomi was out today and I knew that after giving her a good bye hug the day before as I was leaving. I have no hard feelings and I don’t think they do either. I really made a good impression and did quite a bit in that office for the 3 months that I’ve been there and they were all impressed, but I couldn’t stay there. It was too limiting and not enough challenges and if I was feeling that after 3 months how would it be after 6 months? After a year? No I did the right thing and left while the getting was good.

It wasn’t as teary eyed as it was when I left Wanker Banker and it wasn’t as bitter as it was when I left McMann and Tate, but it was nice. I did buy cupcakes yesterday which was a nice touch I think. No cupcakes today, I did have Tuck sitting next to me. Tuck was the temp who worked the front desk when I initially came in for the interview in December. He was also the guy I suggested to replace me since he is also an actor between acting jobs and he knew everyone and everyone liked him. And since he sat next to me throughout the day I had nothing to do since it was best for him to get better acclimated to the front desk which had changed since January.

Wally was a bit upset that nothing was really being done so I did find something for me to do which was all about cleaning out the desk, throwing various memos out that were there since before I was even there. I did go outside a lot more today, just to get away from the office. That was nice, I said good bye to the guy who makes my salads each day and said good bye to the cashier. They wouldn’t notice either way if I never showed up again but the closure helped me out.

After work Wally, Cynthia, Ron, Jack and Tuck took me out for drinks at Figaro a restaurant in the building. I had a few pints, maybe four or five. We hung out and talked around the table and I conceded to myself that I had Wally totally figured out all wrong. He’s actually a funny guy and probably had a few of the same experiences I had in the past. We ran down a list of a few clubs that we both had used to go to in the past and we basically had gone to the same spots. After an hour or two we all had had enough and it was time to go, hugs and handshakes all around and promises to stay in touch with a mention of that if it didn’t work out with where I’m going I could always come back. Thanks, but no thanks.

It’s Thursday, the penultimate day for my employment at Golden Staffing. It’s been a decent run and a bittersweet final week for me. They really don’t want to see me go, but I’m feeling like a fish in a bowl and I’ve outgrown my environment. I think they realize that. I bought some cupcakes to share with everyone in the office and when I gave President Naomi her cupcake there were tears in her eyes. I think it was because I was leaving not because she doesn’t care particularly for cupcakes. I told them that the cupcakes were my way of letting them know how sweet they are. Cue tears.

Last night I was pretty annoyed not at anything in particular but annoyed with everything in particular. I wrote some nasty stuff that never made it to the blog, self censoring me. It’s all for the best. Last time I did that, Juan was the only one who read what I wrote and told me it was rather mean, so I took it off the blog and wrote something entirely different. Last night was pretty much the same only I made the decision for I am the decider. Bill came home last night and watched Lost with me. I think he’s finally getting into the show and the show has been improving story wise. That Juliet is not to be trusted, obviously.

Work was pretty much mellow as I said. I surfed and chatted with an applicant from Saddle Brook NJ. She lives on Samson Street which is where the bog old book warehouse that I used to work in is. It’s no longer a book warehouse by the way. I told her it was my first job and occasionally I occasionally have dreams about being in the warehouse wandering around which is what I used to do mainly. Other than that the day was boring and I ate a lot of chocolate which definitely adding some zing to the day, and there was so much chocolate that there was no crashing, only more chocolate.

One thing that I like to do while surfing is look up the number one songs of a particular time. Today was 1974-75. I looked up the Best of My Love by the Eagles and found myself on a bus coming back from Old Sturbridge MA. For some reason that was a class trip and it was awfully far for a one day excursion. Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds by Elton John reminds of me of hanging out at the Parkway Lanes while my mother and brother bowled on Monday nights and I drank a lot of soda while hanging out with other siblings and children of bowlers.

Please Mister Postman by the Carpenters reminds me of going camping in the winter at Camp No Be Bosko somewhere in Northern New Jersey in January with the Boy Scouts. Sledding, many layers of clothes and Music Radio 77 WABC and Tommy Neidhardt. Have You Never Been Mellow? Have you ever tried? To find the comfort from inside you? Olivia Newton John, a philosopher for the ages? You decide! Lady Marmalade by LaBelle, which upset my father. It turns out that he knew what “voulez-vous coucher avec moi (ce soir)?” meant. Patti, Nona and Sarah in their space age outfits singing on Cher’s variety show. No wonder I’m gay. My formative years.

Rest in Peace Roscoe Lee Browne and Kurt Vonnegut.