Thursday, preoccupied with distraction and freezing cold winds. It’s warm indoors and for that we are grateful. But one does have to go out on occasion and that is when all temperatures drop. Bill is in upstate New York, I am in Hoboken. Mike is coming over, perhaps to spend the night since it is so cold out. Both Bill & myself feel that I should not be left alone, so once more into the breach, comes Mike.

Bill and I both enjoy Mike’s company and personality. A breath of fresh air, a different perspective. We both love Mike and Mike loves the Ernie & Bert aspects of our personalities, Bill & Me. Mike requested that I make the dinner I made on New Year’s Eve, a cheesy tomato sauce with meatballs and ziti. I am heading out in about 20 minutes to meet up with Mike and bring him on over.

I don’t have to, Mike knows how to get here but I am a slave to gathering my steps. I’ve already been to the really big supermarket in town and spent more than I should have and gathered a nice amount of steps. A jaunt to Jersey City, or quite literally Chill Town would put me over the daily step goal and a lot better than yesterday which didn’t have many steps to gather at all.

There will be movies to watch, and Marvel programming to view. Mike enjoys all those things and there are plenty of other things to entertain the two of us.

Solitude can be useful but it doesn’t always work well for me. When Bill is here or when Mike is around I can focus on them. When I am alone I find that it is too easy to be slipping into darkness. And I do not do well there. I am taking measures to not be so despondent. I wished Daisy a wonderful New Year and she appreciated that. I still think it’s best to maintain a distance though.

And I do have to contact Rafe and an associate of his since both said I can use them as a reference and I might need to submit their names for just that. There was a phone interview yesterday and it seemed to go well. It was a baby step, but a step nonetheless.

Los Angeles is aflame and Hoboken is frozen. Friends from social media have checked in saying they were safe from harm. That is a relief considering the footage has been gruesome. And of course, the Reich wing has politicized the emergency situation, just repeating the same daft lines ad infinitum. It’s so tragic and stupid and if only they would listen to the lies they spew, but that would require intelligence and introspection and we know that ain’t gonna happen.

One of the social medias has stated they will no longer fact check anything and will allow Lesbians and Gays and Trans people to be labeled as mentally ill. They were one of the first in the queue to sample from the teat of L’Orange Merde.

Today was a bit of a heavy day, being a Thursday. My daily routine has been disrupted and the holiday season has scrambled it even more. I was annoyed with Bill and I was annoyed with Mike. And it was all on me since they really didn’t do anything.

I love Bill, and he drives me up the fucking wall and when he is not around to do just that, I fall into despair and then he shows up and once again I am driven up the wall by a man who drives a bus.

And Mike, who had crashed early, was not answering his phone, and voice mail was not an option since it seems that he has a full mailbox and has to delete some of the messages. And it was all my interpretation of what was happening or not happening which turned my neuroses up to 11.

Things got better of course, no thanks to me but thanks to communication. To tell you the truth I think both Bill and Mike are still oblivious as to how I was feeling. Maybe Mike more than Bill since Bill has known me for a long time, and we’re entering into our 25th year together. Mike knows me of a sliver of that time and he’s only really seen my good side.

Bill is on the road tomorrow for some day trippers and so I will hang out with Mike in Jersey City. I think it’s good to think of someone that is not me. It’s usually Bill but tomorrow it will me Mike’s turn.

Bill and I walked around Hoboken this afternoon. We shot some video. I had Bill be the cameraman and where I would shoot in increments of a few minutes, Bill recorded almost non-stop. I did not have the loquaciousness that I sometimes do when walking alone and I deferred to Bill or I would like to think I did.

I have no idea what Bill recorded since I haven’t seen it yet. I also created another YouTube channel, @JohnOTOOLE-p3x is the address. I just sent the new address/account to Bill so he can send the video he recorded this afternoon and I could review it.

Perhaps I will record video of Mike tomorrow. He recited some poetry to me a while back and it was quite good and I do have a plan to include it in this thing that I am working on at some point this year.

The video recording Bill and I have done the past couple of days were inspired by Rand & Lisa’s jaunts around Hoboken as well as other places. It won’t be these videos that are only a few seconds long and looped in repetition.

Some people post them for some reason, perhaps they think it’s cute but I think it’s maddening. The only people that get a pass for those types of posts (I am hesitant to call them videos) would be my niece and her daughter.

Everyone else should be shunned until they know better. I am only writing that since I just saw Dan McLear on a social media post that exact maddening thing.