I was just thinking of how, when we convinced Mike to get a laptop, it would help him write down his poetry, to help him write his plays, and perhaps learn some skills on a computer that would give him a leg up on the people who are also looking for jobs. But that’s not what he’s doing I’m pretty sure of it, it’s more about looking at porn.

I am doing computer things now, and considering that I’m mostly self-taught and not that bad at it. Mike would have the advantage of Bill and me on his shoulder, helping him proceed, but that’s not it.

Mike’s boyfriend is thinking about moving back east so he and Mike can be close together, and so Mike’s boyfriend is looking for work. I made a few suggestions of each or so ago, and that’s about as far as I would go.

I don’t think it’s a good idea since they’ve met twice and FaceTime, I’m not sure if that’s the way to determine the relationship. But it’s a new generation, it’s a new age, and perhaps that’s how things are done nowadays. I am a dinosaur after all.

Having met Bill 25 years ago via a Yahoo groups party that seemed to be out of the ordinary, but nowadays it seems to be quite tame. In any event, it’s not my life, it’s not my decision.

Yesterday, the whole day went by without contacting Mike on the phone. A few texts here and there, but that was about it.

Perhaps that’s how it should be. There are a few realizations that came across in my head over the weekend due to the lack of contact, and they seem to make sense at least to me.

He asked me to purchase a box of cigars for him, but my funds are a bit tight at the moment, so I begged off.

The bloom is probably off the rose, but sometimes it reblooms again. Right now it is off.
He can always ask his boyfriend for whatever it is that he needs. I am not the one.

The well can run dry, believe it or not.

The boyfriend and Mike have a plan to go on a cruise in April or May. And that is considering that Mike will not be employed at that time. I do not know how Mike’s job search is proceeding. I feel that it is not, and he is content with his 1200 social security check that he receives once a month, which he spends on cigars.

I am not one to talk because when I was unemployed, I was still buying cigars. But I was also actively looking for work from the moment I woke up to the moment I went to bed.
But that is just me.

But what I am doing is basically copying and pasting every day, and if I can do it, I can definitely do it, but Mike is not making any effort to learn such tasks, and I was hoping he would to improve his station in life, but he seems content even though the station in life does not exist at this moment for him. I mean, if I can do it, anyone can do it, and if anyone can do it, Mike can definitely do it.

Like many of my school teachers told me on my report cards and to my parents, if only he could apply himself