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The rose’s faded bloom

Saturday evening and 55°. It’s been a crappy day for lack of a better word. Communicative methods didn’t work necessarily, or at least not how they should have. I had no problem communicating, but other people with whom I interacted certainly did. And in an effort to maintain that lack of communication, I shall refrain from posting about it.

At least that is how I feel at the moment. Bill was off to rehearse the staged reading that he is performing on Monday evening. I will be working the door, Mike’s going to be my guest. Our neighbor Deb is stage-managing the reading. I posted on the social medias for the past week or so but I have no idea how the turnout will be.

There were fliers that I had hoped to put up in various shops and stores but I never got them. I felt that a week or so before the event would be good enough to post these fliers but I think I was the only one thinking about these sorts of things. I was only trying to help but one can’t help people that do not want to be helped.

Mike came over and I helped him with his laundry. There was an unease between me and Bill and also between me and Mike. Lack of communication. In Mike’s case I held back on 99% of whatever it is that I wanted to say. He had his cereal and I hung his laundry to dry.

After his cereal, we walked to Guitar Bar where the fliers were reportedly sent. I asked Larry who was there on a busy Saturday afternoon who said the only flier that he knew about was hanging on the wall to my right. That was disappointing.

I bought a Powerball ticket and tried to tell Mike a joke about something that actually happened when I bought a lottery ticket a few months ago but he had something else on his mind and to his ears he heard white noise in more ways than one. I’m used to people having something on their mind when they talk and they eventually ask just what it was that I was talking about.

Mike doesn’t do that. I made light of that situation which made Mike agitated. Perhaps the rose is losing its bloom. Bill came home with the fliers that he picked up from the Guitar Bar which was an annoyance for me and also perfect for how the day had been proceeding.

Mike wanted to watch the Hunger Games which I remember Juan trying to get me interested in, but there was no interest from me. Bill was game and since the Hunger Games were not streaming he opted to rent it as I made dinner for the three of us.

I have to say it was a mediocre meal and I can get away with saying that since I am the one who made it. Bill and Mike sat in front of the TV watching the Hunger Games and I sat at the kitchen table reading while looking at rose petals strewn about the floor.

42° Friday

To write again. Oh, I’ve been avoiding it or putting it off all day. Yesterday too. I had a job interview on Wednesday and it was lackluster. I did well but I may have done too well. Too much personality. They were kind enough to let me know within 24 hours that I was not wanted for the position.

My heart wasn’t in it though I answered their questions with something that resembled enthusiasm. And if they offered the job I may have taken it. But they did not and so I will not. I found out before hooking up with Mike so I had that to talk about as we walked through Jersey City.

It is a bit unnerving, me talking all the time and Mike not saying much, just taking it all in. We had a very good time yesterday though with more good times a comin’ round the bend. The episode of Lawn Hors d’oeuvre that I was an extra in was broadcast last night.

Unlike the episode Bill was involved with a few weeks ago where he was on for a few seconds and recognizable by me, I did not make the cut and wound up on the floor of the editing suite. That was always a possibility and I got paid for it nonetheless. It would have been fun if I made it onscreen but such is life.

There might be other opportunities but who knows really? I have been asked for my availability and when I answer yes, that I would be available, they withdraw their interest. Mike told a few people that he knows about this casting thing and they seem to be getting more time on sets for movies and whatnot.

That’s show biz I reckon.

Today I gathered my steps again, same route as most days. I did have a plan to go meet up with Mike in Manhattan but he put that aside since it was cold and windy and we really didn’t have any idea on where to go. Gone are the days when I’d be hanging with Julio with no particular place to go and stumbling into one spot or another which was almost always a comfortable spot.

Bill doesn’t really do that these days. Pedro would on occasion but he had a car. I don’t think the temperature mattered with Julio. If it were cold we would just hustle along faster. But most of those memories are from spring or summer times.

After Mike put the kibosh on the afternoon in Manhattan I talked myself in and out of going to the city for the cigar social. Bill was home and going to bed early so he egged me on going. I was in I was out. Finally put a sweater on, and a coat and grabbed a bottle of water, and headed out.

I bought my ticket and activated it on Washington Street and waited for the approaching 126 bus to the Port Authority. We had our phones out and signaled for the driver to stop. The bus was empty as he rolled on by, seemingly signaling to catch the next bus. The thing is, there was no next bus coming, at least not within eyesight.

I called Bill and told him of the bus fiasco and he told me another bus would be coming which was a known fact but just not a bus that was visible and no buses seemed to be adhering to the schedule.

I walked a bit to the next stop and if I saw a bus coming I would get on it, but nothing was coming down Washington Street. I walked home thinking the Universe was telling me not to go, which I accepted as I climbed the stairs to my flat.