Monthly Archives: January 2025

Walkies

Today was a bit of a heavy day, being a Thursday. My daily routine has been disrupted and the holiday season has scrambled it even more. I was annoyed with Bill and I was annoyed with Mike. And it was all on me since they really didn’t do anything.

I love Bill, and he drives me up the fucking wall and when he is not around to do just that, I fall into despair and then he shows up and once again I am driven up the wall by a man who drives a bus.

And Mike, who had crashed early, was not answering his phone, and voice mail was not an option since it seems that he has a full mailbox and has to delete some of the messages. And it was all my interpretation of what was happening or not happening which turned my neuroses up to 11.

Things got better of course, no thanks to me but thanks to communication. To tell you the truth I think both Bill and Mike are still oblivious as to how I was feeling. Maybe Mike more than Bill since Bill has known me for a long time, and we’re entering into our 25th year together. Mike knows me of a sliver of that time and he’s only really seen my good side.

Bill is on the road tomorrow for some day trippers and so I will hang out with Mike in Jersey City. I think it’s good to think of someone that is not me. It’s usually Bill but tomorrow it will me Mike’s turn.

Bill and I walked around Hoboken this afternoon. We shot some video. I had Bill be the cameraman and where I would shoot in increments of a few minutes, Bill recorded almost non-stop. I did not have the loquaciousness that I sometimes do when walking alone and I deferred to Bill or I would like to think I did.

I have no idea what Bill recorded since I haven’t seen it yet. I also created another YouTube channel, @JohnOTOOLE-p3x is the address. I just sent the new address/account to Bill so he can send the video he recorded this afternoon and I could review it.

Perhaps I will record video of Mike tomorrow. He recited some poetry to me a while back and it was quite good and I do have a plan to include it in this thing that I am working on at some point this year.

The video recording Bill and I have done the past couple of days were inspired by Rand & Lisa’s jaunts around Hoboken as well as other places. It won’t be these videos that are only a few seconds long and looped in repetition.

Some people post them for some reason, perhaps they think it’s cute but I think it’s maddening. The only people that get a pass for those types of posts (I am hesitant to call them videos) would be my niece and her daughter.

Everyone else should be shunned until they know better. I am only writing that since I just saw Dan McLear on a social media post that exact maddening thing.

Good Feeling

It’s a new dawn, it’s a new day and it’s a Wednesday which today is known as New Year’s Day. Been a long time coming and hopefully the yoke of depression from 2024 can be lifted from my un-Atlas like shoulders. It wasn’t easy and it is still murky.

Tuesday was an awkward morning. I had been after Bill to clear off the couch since Mike was coming over for a New Year’s Eve hangout and would crash on our couch. I asked Bill to do this for a long time, usually using humor and asking him if he knew where our couch had gone.

It was crowded when Juan was visiting but after Juan’s visits ended, Bill’s couch domain had greatly expanded. Bill’s method was entirely a last minute action that drove me up the wall. I did try to help but Bill was in a zone and when Bill is in that zone it is best to leave him to it.

That meant I was out and about before noon. And that had me wandering all over Hoboken, from Newark Street to 14th Street. I busied myself picking up items in preparation for Mike’s visit. I stopped at Guitar Bar and spoke to Mr Wonderful- Jim Mastro, and explained my regret at not being able to see his daughter Lily perform at the 503 Social Club.

That is scheduled for January 5, this coming Sunday and I was going to go but instead, I will attend my dear friend Connie’s going away party, leaving Highlands NJ for Oxnard Shores CA. Connie does not want to go but there is really no alternative. Connie is quite ill and there are more days behind her than ahead of her and her sister Jennifer is the only one able to take care of her. So it will be a bittersweet farewell.

I got some cigars and spoke with Imram and also decided to shoot some video, landscape style, just recording and offering my opinions on various subjects as I trod around Hoboken. I haven’t watched it yet so I have no idea how it is or how much this heavy breather sounded walking down the boulevards and streets.

I also stopped in Trader Joe’s for some sweets for the evening gathering. Off to the supermarket after that. Our favorite cashier now mans the express checkout, no longer on self-checkout. We had a nice brief chat and as we were talking the woman behind me set her stuff by the credit card machine before I checked out. She was embarrassed and I made light of the fact that if she wanted to pay for my items, I wouldn’t mind one bit. Laughter all around as I walked off.

I shot some more video on my way home, a bit apprehensive about Bill’s state of mind. I picked up a six-pack of Corona since Mike likes Corona, even shooting some salacious videos as he drinks Corona and smokes a cigar. I came home and saw the missing couch.

Bill had done a good job and was not as frenetic as he was when I left an hour or so earlier. I settled down and got very comfortable when I realized I had to go meet Mike. He’s come over in the past and we would walk around Hoboken indirectly as we were walking to my crib. Since Mike was sleeping over and going to work in the morning I thought it best to show him a more direct way, just 3 straight lines that he would have to repeat in a reverse direction in the morning.

Mike was so enamored of my look as I walked with him he took some photos of me smoking a cigar. We were soon home, Bill and Mike sitting on the couch and me in the kitchen making some dinner for the three of us. Ziti, meatballs and a cheesy tomato sauce which actually turned out to be one of the better dishes I ever made.

They sat on the couch and watched TV as I sat in the kitchen where I like to eat and read, telling them the chef eats in the kitchen. We watched Dr Strange In the Multiverse of Madness and a few episodes on another Marvel show, What if… I wound up drinking 1 bottle of Corona with Lime and 4 pints of Guinness.

I was feeling good not knowing how it would affect my sleep. Bill was off to bed, Mike sacked out on the couch leaving me with nothing much to except attempt to go to bed. It was not a good sleep, having to go to the bathroom every now and then, more than usual. I even stirred Mike somewhat in my trips. That was fun though.

6:30 came soon enough, Bill alarm going off and me going out of bed to see Mike on his way. He was able to get to work before 7:30 and phoned to let me know. I eventually had 2 or 3 good hours of sleep, including one dream where I had reconciled with a dear old friend that I had a falling out with a few years ago. In the Dr Strange movie, it is said that dreams are glimpses of the multiverse, so that was a good feeling.