Day Three. Not bad, a little bit stressful. It does take some time to adjust and take in people’s personalities, and I needed to remember that a few times today. Apparently I’m doing a good enough job. I asked the president of the company, the woman who hired me how I was doing and she said that if I hadn’t heard any complaints then all must be going well. A no news is good news situation. And I haven’t heard any complaints so I must be doing something right, right? Oh how I sometimes crave approval, at least when starting out at a new job.

I don’t seek out the approval but use it as a gauge to see how I’m doing. On the fifth day at McMann and Masturbators, charming Felicia told me when I asked how I was doing, said in her shrill voice, ‘You were a lot more energetic during the interview’. Well I am energetic and like helping people out, sometimes I can even be proactive and I don’t mean the astringent to get rid of acne.

These job situations that I’ve been in the past few months, have rekindled an idea I have for a script, or maybe a novel, but having written that I hope I didn’t jinx myself. It’s Thursday, Bill is at his folks tonight, and Juan’s coming over. It’s an odd thing that I’ve noticed lately. I don’t like being alone. I never used to have that problem, but now I just can’t stand it. I like having people around. The more the merrier works for me. While I was out during the holidays I was usually climbing the walls while couch surfing solo. It sucked and I couldn’t wait for Bill to come home from work or for Juan to show up at night.

I never used to be this way. I used to love being on my own, doing my own thing. I used to go out and do things but lately not so much. Part of it is financial, but I do know how to do many things that cost very little money at all. Laziness, inertia all play into the equation. And of course having no one to do anything with definitely is a major part of it.
Now I’m sitting in front of the computer by myself, while Ugly Betty plays on behind me. Juan called he’s coming over to hang out for a little while so I’m looking forward to that.

In the meantime, I’m getting used to going to bed earlier than I’ve been the past two weeks, usually horizontal before 11:30. This morning wasn’t so easy due to a few glasses of wine last night with Juan. I was pouring so I can’t blame him. Bill being Mr. wonderful was a great motivator to get me up and moving this morning. He’s been so great lately and he’s been playing his keyboards again which fills the apartment up with live music. Now we just have to get together and jam. Bill on keys, me on bass and maybe Juan on some rhythm guitar. That sounds like a good time to me.