Well the past 24 hours were a bit fuzzy. It was all good and enjoyable as far as I could tell. Tuesday was pretty much an easy going day. I had plans to have drinks with Brenda, a former co-worker from Wanker Banker. I also had 2 boxed sets of Lord of the Rings that I had borrowed from another co-worker, Ahsen that I needed to return to him. These are the super deluxe versions of the first two ‘Rings’ films. Lot’s of plot holes filled. I wound up getting all three boxed sets for about 15 dollars a pop online.

It was odd going to the old office. I wandered into the lobby and was talking to the security guards who were happy to see me. We chatted as Christina my former assistant walked by. She didn’t recognize me so I called her name. She was going out for a smoke so I joined her. She confided in me about her man problems, specifically the guy she’s been living with who has another girl on the side. She was upset because the girl is bisexual and gives the guy what every guy supposedly want. Not a blow job, but a lesbian show. That’s something Christina just will not do.

I rode the elevator with her and walked over to Hansen’s desk where he sits with Gazi and Vinnie. It was great to see them of course. They’re the guys who created my computer. They’re quite silly and funny and I had a lot of fun talking to them again. They mentioned how great it would be if I came back, but deep down we all know that isn’t going to happen. I wound up going outside and having a cigarette with Ahsen and Vinnie, so much like old times.

After that I wandered around midtown killing time before hooking up with Brenda at the Carnegie Club. It’s a cigar bar and last night it was filled with quite a few handsome men in suits smoking cigars. I was also in a suit and fit right in. I just didn’t feel like wearing jeans and t-shirt. I do love wearing the suit and tie as you might well know. Brenda showed up and we sat and talked about how her life at Wanker Banker has been. She’s been going through her own personal hell for the past year. We just sat and talked as I smoked a cigar. It was fun once we got off the maudlin ‘work sucks’ stories.

We left and I walked her to 42nd street so she can catch her train to Westchester. I walked to the Path and caught a train back to Hoboken. Juan was in town for the holiday and he came over. We hung out all night watching movies and drinking beers. I had a lot of fun with Juan and with Bill staying at his parent’s house last night I invited Juan to crash. That was a lot of fun. We woke up late in the morning and walked over to the Spa restaurant on the way to the train station where I bought tickets for the Thanksgiving dinner in Trenton with my Powers cousins tomorrow.

We came back and watched ‘Shaun of the Dead’ which was just as good as Annemarie said it was. I napped for three hours after Juan left and Bill came home. And here I am.

Ahh, it finally feels like a vacation. Most everyone else is at work, I stayed up late and watched Saturday Night Live, recorded from the night before. It was good. Not as funny as the previous week. Bill had gone to bed really early. He’s been working on some play and yesterday he had church, his parents and rehearsal. I’m getting used to his not being around again. I did mind that he wasn’t around and I did mind that there have not been any physical signs of attraction from him. It sort of makes me feel undesirable, despite what various friends say.

I made a run into the city with Rand. Two days in a row, riding public transportation with el Jefe. He wanted to go to Best Buy and I went along for the ride. I thought maybe buying something would bolster my spirits, but couldn’t find any dvd or cd that floated my boat. We walked over to Tek Serve and I was going to ask about a cd adapter for an iPod but the girl behind the counter was busy trying to answer a couple’s questions, and it didn’t look like any answers were going to come through anytime soon.

I walked out and told Rand what I was looking for. Turns out there is no such adapter for the iPod, at least not yet. I’m sure the question would’ve stumped the girl behind the counter. All in all it was a dash in and dash out of the city. We weren’t there for over an hour and didn’t spend a dime. I suppose that was a good thing. We parted ways at 7th and Bloomfield, once we were back in Hoboken. It very much resembled the ending of the Bicycle Tour’ episode of Monty Python’s Flying Circus.

Just napped and watched some TV. Bill came home and it was odd betweens us, mainly by my doing. I was lonely and dare I say it, horny and I wasn’t going to get anything from Bill, that much was for sure. He went into the bedroom, running some lines for the play then it was off to bed, all by 9:00. I so feel like Mrs. Roper sometimes, but where is my Jack Tripper? I have been noticing some very hot men around Hoboken and occasionally in the city, so perhaps I will test the waters.

Well that’s what I felt yesterday. Today, let’s just say I didn’t just test the waters, I dove in head first in a manner of speaking. Two times and of course, safe and I feel so much better god damn it! And to be appreciated, wow. I forgot how that felt. Apparently I’m not such a lousy lover as I had come to believe. I walked around Hoboken, feeling so good, like I hadn’t felt in such a long time. And speaking of a long time, I spoke to someone from my book company days. Out of the blue! Mi gusta!