Ahh, it finally feels like a vacation. Most everyone else is at work, I stayed up late and watched Saturday Night Live, recorded from the night before. It was good. Not as funny as the previous week. Bill had gone to bed really early. He’s been working on some play and yesterday he had church, his parents and rehearsal. I’m getting used to his not being around again. I did mind that he wasn’t around and I did mind that there have not been any physical signs of attraction from him. It sort of makes me feel undesirable, despite what various friends say.

I made a run into the city with Rand. Two days in a row, riding public transportation with el Jefe. He wanted to go to Best Buy and I went along for the ride. I thought maybe buying something would bolster my spirits, but couldn’t find any dvd or cd that floated my boat. We walked over to Tek Serve and I was going to ask about a cd adapter for an iPod but the girl behind the counter was busy trying to answer a couple’s questions, and it didn’t look like any answers were going to come through anytime soon.

I walked out and told Rand what I was looking for. Turns out there is no such adapter for the iPod, at least not yet. I’m sure the question would’ve stumped the girl behind the counter. All in all it was a dash in and dash out of the city. We weren’t there for over an hour and didn’t spend a dime. I suppose that was a good thing. We parted ways at 7th and Bloomfield, once we were back in Hoboken. It very much resembled the ending of the Bicycle Tour’ episode of Monty Python’s Flying Circus.

Just napped and watched some TV. Bill came home and it was odd betweens us, mainly by my doing. I was lonely and dare I say it, horny and I wasn’t going to get anything from Bill, that much was for sure. He went into the bedroom, running some lines for the play then it was off to bed, all by 9:00. I so feel like Mrs. Roper sometimes, but where is my Jack Tripper? I have been noticing some very hot men around Hoboken and occasionally in the city, so perhaps I will test the waters.

Well that’s what I felt yesterday. Today, let’s just say I didn’t just test the waters, I dove in head first in a manner of speaking. Two times and of course, safe and I feel so much better god damn it! And to be appreciated, wow. I forgot how that felt. Apparently I’m not such a lousy lover as I had come to believe. I walked around Hoboken, feeling so good, like I hadn’t felt in such a long time. And speaking of a long time, I spoke to someone from my book company days. Out of the blue! Mi gusta!